Monthly Archives: May 2010

a journey through the arts

i would like to say that i have always been appreciative of art… i began dancing at the age of 6 and that was a form of art for part of my life. i don’t know that i actually believed it was art, but other people said it was- and i believed them. unfortunately the beauty of that artistic expression was ruined by the competitive nature of the “dance world”. never being good enough, thin enough, flexible enough, etc. i think dancing became more of a chore or a task as the years went on. i don’t blame anyone- it was just the way things happened. i was never self-confident and i always had something to work on. the lifestyle was exhausting and slowly became something damaging rather than good. over time, i parted ways with dancing. it was not an easy decision and leaving came with plenty of emotional baggage.

after ending the dance season, i decided to go to the complete opposite side of the physical activity spectrum and play water polo. this was an incredible boost in my self-confidence. finally a place where i fit in and was successful. i wouldn’t say that water polo was artistic, but it was fun and it was something different. but without any art, i had to find some sort of outlet. this is when my makeup phase came in. i LOVED (that might be an understatement) everything about makeup. i didn’t think that i looked ugly without it and i was just fine leaving the house without makeup. i simply enjoyed putting it on-mixing colors, putting light and dark shades on different parts of my eyes, and creating something so unique. i quickly became the makeup artist for every prom, ball, special event, and senior photo shoot. i loved it. i found it a challenge to apply makeup on someone new, i saw each person’s face as my blank canvas and i was ready to paint. i loved it so much that i actually did my high school senior project on how women used and wore makeup throughout the 20th century- crazy, i know… told you “loved” might be an understatement.

my makeup obsession phased out when i started college. i was too lazy to put it on every morning and only a few friends knew how much makeup i really owned. as that phase ended, naturally, another one began… this phase was the world of Sabrina Ward Harrison and art journaling. i was fascinated with her work and the creative expression she had. i made an attempt at art journaling myself and things took off from there. looking back at these seasons and phases of life, i realized that art has been an incredible part of who i am, which is why this quote from Picasso stands out to me. i believe it is so true of my own life, “art washes away from the soul, the dust of everyday life.” art is not limited to any one thing and that is the beauty of it. whether participating or admiring, i hope that you are able to find what types of artistic expression wipes away the everyday dust in your life. maybe it’s the creation of a beautiful meal, taking a walk to appreciate the spring flowers, listening to or playing a musical instrument, dancing or moving your body, appreciating cinematography, applying makeup, or creating your own art page/canvas. whatever it may be for you, my desire is that you find joy, peace, beauty, and rest in something artistic that is out of the ordinary from your day to day life.


thoughts on graduation: what? it’s over?! but there’s life to come…

may 8, 2010 has come and gone so quickly. graduation was incredible.

with the stadium filled with thousands of friends and family, the class of 2010 could not have had more energy. as we lined up on campus, groups of friends clumped together filled with jitters and excitement for the moments to come. professors and friends came by, talked with us, took pictures, said their congratulations and went on their way. we lined up in what was supposed to be a single-file line and marched in to that stadium with pride and a sense of accomplishment of the last 4 years. as we were walking, we kept saying to each other “what are we doing here?!”, “how could this be happening?”, “where did these last 4 years go?” and “why the heck are we wearing these obnoxious hats and enormous gowns?!” we were in shock.

the graduation itself was pretty great. i was trying to soak in every moment, but it wasn’t easy. i was highly distracted by a professor cooking up hot dogs near me. and then zoned out a little bit when 600 names were being called and i was in the last 30… but all that said, walking across that stage was one of the greatest feelings ever. i shook President Wallace’s hand with a big smile and went back to my seat with my diploma (case) in hand. that was it- i graduated. with one last prayer and a giant cheer from the entire stadium, i left that night as a college graduate.

this has truly been a time of celebration. while it’s been very bittersweet, i am excited to move on. i’m ready to keep learning, to continue pursuing my dreams, to build on old friendships, and create new ones. i feel like i have come to an understanding on a few things in my life and know that there are still parts that need a lot of work. i have learned so much about myself and about the woman i am and want to be. i am ready to step into this new stage and so excited to see what it brings. this is not the end, it’s really just the beginning.

graduation is not doom’s day and it’s not the end of everything fun. i’m tired of hearing about the horrible economy and how hard it is to find a job. and while that is a harsh reality, i think most of us just need a moment to celebrate. we GRADUATED… from COLLEGE! we are less than 1% of the world. and that is something to celebrate! we have survived some tough papers and brutal tests. academically, we have learned A TON. and in life, these past 4 years have changed us forever. there have been experiences that we wouldn’t change for the world. and friends that will stand by each other for a lifetime. this is a time to celebrate. so here’s to finishing well, to creating more fun times, and to living this adventure called life.