i would like to say that i have always been appreciative of art… i began dancing at the age of 6 and that was a form of art for part of my life. i don’t know that i actually believed it was art, but other people said it was- and i believed them. unfortunately the beauty of that artistic expression was ruined by the competitive nature of the “dance world”. never being good enough, thin enough, flexible enough, etc. i think dancing became more of a chore or a task as the years went on. i don’t blame anyone- it was just the way things happened. i was never self-confident and i always had something to work on. the lifestyle was exhausting and slowly became something damaging rather than good. over time, i parted ways with dancing. it was not an easy decision and leaving came with plenty of emotional baggage.
after ending the dance season, i decided to go to the complete opposite side of the physical activity spectrum and play water polo. this was an incredible boost in my self-confidence. finally a place where i fit in and was successful. i wouldn’t say that water polo was artistic, but it was fun and it was something different. but without any art, i had to find some sort of outlet. this is when my makeup phase came in. i LOVED (that might be an understatement) everything about makeup. i didn’t think that i looked ugly without it and i was just fine leaving the house without makeup. i simply enjoyed putting it on-mixing colors, putting light and dark shades on different parts of my eyes, and creating something so unique. i quickly became the makeup artist for every prom, ball, special event, and senior photo shoot. i loved it. i found it a challenge to apply makeup on someone new, i saw each person’s face as my blank canvas and i was ready to paint. i loved it so much that i actually did my high school senior project on how women used and wore makeup throughout the 20th century- crazy, i know… told you “loved” might be an understatement.
my makeup obsession phased out when i started college. i was too lazy to put it on every morning and only a few friends knew how much makeup i really owned. as that phase ended, naturally, another one began… this phase was the world of Sabrina Ward Harrison and art journaling. i was fascinated with her work and the creative expression she had. i made an attempt at art journaling myself and things took off from there. looking back at these seasons and phases of life, i realized that art has been an incredible part of who i am, which is why this quote from Picasso stands out to me. i believe it is so true of my own life, “art washes away from the soul, the dust of everyday life.” art is not limited to any one thing and that is the beauty of it. whether participating or admiring, i hope that you are able to find what types of artistic expression wipes away the everyday dust in your life. maybe it’s the creation of a beautiful meal, taking a walk to appreciate the spring flowers, listening to or playing a musical instrument, dancing or moving your body, appreciating cinematography, applying makeup, or creating your own art page/canvas. whatever it may be for you, my desire is that you find joy, peace, beauty, and rest in something artistic that is out of the ordinary from your day to day life.